BUT I LIKE BEING IN CONTROL!!!

Have you ever noticed that one thing no human being likes to do is to wait- for anything? We get impatient, and then strike out on our own to accomplish whatever it is we "can't" wait for. And then... we find out that perhaps it would have been better for us to wait in the first place.

God does want us to wait in life. He wants us to develope a deeper trust and reliance on Him. We must wait on His timing, for His timing is perfect. He knows whether on not something is good for us, and when the right time for us to have it is. This goes for anything in life: a job, money, a car, a house, a boyfriend/girlfriend, a husband/wife, etc. Those things are not neccessarily bad, they just might not be good for us- maybe now, maybe ever.

I frequently try to take over the situation, and you know what I found out? Every time I do, I end up making a mess of it- and then become depressed and miserable. Every time. You'd think I'd learn. But I'm like a child- I want my way, and my way alone. I have this strange idea that I know what's best for me. I forget that the only one who really knows what's best for me is my heavenly Father.

I was recently doing it again, trying to control everything. And I was confronted. And convicted. And had to spend some serious time with God. And He showed me this passage;

"O God, you are my God;
I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in your sanctuary
and gazed upon your power and glory.
Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
how I praise you!
I will praise you as long as I live,
lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
I will praise you with songs of joy.

I lie awake thinking of you,
meditating on you through the night.
Because you are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you;
your strong right hand holds me securely."

-Psalm 63:1-8 (NLT)

I had let everything else take over, become more important than Him. All He was asking was for me to turn over the reigns, to let Him handle it all, to lean on Him, trusting Him to do His will. He desire to do His will, which is perfect. I just simply have to let go.

It all comes down to this: who/what is my greatest desire? Whom/what do I thirst for? Who/what holds me? On whom/what do I depend on? Is it God? Or is it a person/thing?

Ask God to show you who's in control of your life. If it's not Him, surrender it all to Him. Trust me, it's not worth the pain and agony of trying to control it on your own.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." -Matthew 6:33 (NLT)